I didn't know to feel. I knew you weren't a malicious killer, and I thought... I had healed you during the field trip only to send you back to killing people. Death seemed like a more merciful option if you were killing against your will. Nobody was going to vote for your expulsion, but... I don't know. Maybe without the curse, I would have felt the same way as Tsuyukusa and thought that there was only one way to end things.
[ it's harder still, when he has complicated feelings regarding authority and parental figures. otome made him feel safe, which is something he had been sorely lacking with his actual parent. he didn't have a healthy parent-child relationship in general, so latching onto otome felt like wrong. it was a risk he wasn't sure was going to pay off. but deep, deep down, he really did need - and want - someone to care about him. he just didn't know what to do with positive relationships. ]
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I didn't know to feel. I knew you weren't a malicious killer, and I thought... I had healed you during the field trip only to send you back to killing people. Death seemed like a more merciful option if you were killing against your will. Nobody was going to vote for your expulsion, but... I don't know. Maybe without the curse, I would have felt the same way as Tsuyukusa and thought that there was only one way to end things.
[ it's harder still, when he has complicated feelings regarding authority and parental figures. otome made him feel safe, which is something he had been sorely lacking with his actual parent. he didn't have a healthy parent-child relationship in general, so latching onto otome felt like wrong. it was a risk he wasn't sure was going to pay off. but deep, deep down, he really did need - and want - someone to care about him. he just didn't know what to do with positive relationships. ]